You are not alone!

Read books written by other victims. You will find some peace in knowing you are feeling and acting the way you would be expected to. I thought I would never get better and never ever be happy again. I couldn't understand how people would be interested in shopping or laughing at a comedy on television. I felt like I was all alone, until I started reading. These women survivors felt and acted so much like I did that I knew it wasn't me, I wasn't weak. I knew this is how I am supposed to be; but, it would get better. Here are some titles that helped me:

Found - Michelle Corrao with Emily Sutherland

Intended Harm - Diana Oakley

Undying Will - Donna J. Ferres